Today is an unreliable narrator, 
idly sitting under a gigantic sun 
like a tropical tourist,
waiting for lilac hurricanes.
Today is the last strand of hair 
god coloured blue , before 
hammering bones of a fish 
into a poet's pen.
Today is the verse yesterday mimics , 
while a mine slowly dances to it, 
not afraid of an explosion.
Today is an escape map 
weaved over sunsets, for a rebellion transparent enough to forget blood stains.
Today is the coil of tragedy 
sticked on to the gentle breath 
of saturn waiting to be silenced 
by lawful euthanasia.
Today is the mute story 
no one can remember because 
it had no golden yellow morals 
to teach both sheeps and wolfs.
Today is a cannibal eating its own heart, passionately enough to call it a beautiful art.
Today is the fingers over 
itching scalp of a daughter 
who is secretly going to cut her hair, 
in response to everything
she is going through.
Today is a tattoo hidden under 
organza gloves, dangerous enough 
to start a military coup in a 
conventional country.
Today is a crack inside my mouth 
where evil is taking its beauty nap.
Today is grief written in colonizer's alphabet , begging to be read and loved.
This means,
today is a nice day 
to turn into water 
which decides its own state of matter .

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