My lover once stitched a lullaby 
around my mouth and 
I pirated it into the market of memories 
on a monsoon day in which 
the sky was a weeping woman 
and my umbrella was a man 
unfurling his childhood trauma into anger.
It was before my lover 
lended a matchbox to devils 
so that they can light a candle 
to walk through the darkness inside him.
Grief for him, was a bride, 
coming in blue horse, 
with her dainty dress moving aganist 
her sand blasted shoulders, whom
he welcomed with cactus thirst.
And he made a home for her and 
they turned to a single rock, 
forgetting the legend of springs.
What this means is, 
I had to strung an elegy for him 
in a daisy chain.
That I had to tore the scarf of his song 
from the constellation of mad kisses.
I decided to put it inside 
the broken neck of a humming bird- 
a danglingal martyr of calloused time.
Because,
I was a shepherd with flute, 
he was a tiger with a hiccup in his throat. 
I was a bird watcher, 
And my lover, a fisher man.
We used to wash our melancholy, 
but our hearts are made of clay , 
so in the end we became heartless.
Like fortune line on dead man's hand, 
love stands, inside lizard stare of a 
nameless God's wedding banquet.






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