#6

 I was drowning and 

the boy I loved thought 

I was just playing  

He laughed and 

his beautiful laughs 

echoed in my shallow bones,

my bones so heavy that 

I couldn't stand up.

He was a heart break 

older than me 

and in his eyes I 

used to hide when 

it was loud and dark.

He had a song in his lips 

inarticulatable to common tongue,

and a knife hid between 

flowers I forgot to notice.

Then one day

he stabbed me, 

just above the eye.*

I was dead. 

I saw hell,  but still

resurrected,

the scarlet letter 

as my halo..

And now 

I have cuts in my hands,

and wounds in my heart:

Deep bruises, permanent scars.

My life rests on

a wretched faith,

my hope thin as my smile.

I fool myself too much,

I hate myself too.

I am a vagabond,

who have erased 

my street number

and wiped my directions

clean as a kitchen sink.

And 

in oddly hushed nights,

I cry, 

I repent and 

listen to the rantings 

of moon and tell her 

that this is not the life 

I wished for ..

To the stars who listen,

For God's sake, be quiet, 

I beg you to stop laughing,

I beg you to be quiet . 




* it is said that Marlowe was killed by a stab above his eye.

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